Warning....LONG POST

Its been several days since i've last blogged and for that, I apologize. Life has been crazy again but isn't it always. Since my last post I played in my first golf tournament. Thanks to Fruity, B, Philip, and Cope I learned how to play golf in college. I'm STILL horrible. I wish those guys were here for that tournament. I played with a team that I didn't really know. I knew one guy out of the 3. Need less to say, the other 2 carried our team. It was alot of fun and the money went to missions. We started our Wednesday night worship service called "Oasis". It seems to be going well. Its been fun leading worship. This Saturday I will be going to the UT Football game. I'm pretty pumped about that. I had a guy from work offer me a free ticket...you CAN'T turn that down!!! UT football is a BIG deal here in KNoxville and i'm pumped about going. So, can i say that I hate my internet?? Its been out so i'm typing this from a new hangout...Panera Bread. I've also picked up a third job for what little free time i have. I've noticed that alot of places are now doing checks on Blogs, Facebook, and Myspace, so i'll refrain from listing that place. If you have questions about it, ask. My schedule for the next few weeks is crazy. It consists of a trip to Atlanta (call you soon Brother), paintball, UT Game(s), paintball, worship leading, and Poland. Yea, it's crazy. So that should get you caught up on my life here lately.

The next question i've been thinking on lately, is what in the world is GOd teaching me. I think as of late, i've realized my lack of faith. I know how God speaks but it would be nice if it would be Audible or on the wall or something. Here lately i have dealt alot with discouragment and its hitting me on several different levels. I know things happen for a reason but its crazy how things happen and God breathes life into something and it's like He's just wanting to see how i'll react. I'll be honest, my first reaction is to question, "what are you doing" but then it goes to "WHY NOT NOW? and so on. Its led to frustration and disappointment. Then, i had a co-worker who happen to be reading their devotion and thought of me. The title, "Confronting Closed Doors". Now at first I was angry. When you are already angry or hurt, the last thing you want is people to give you unsolicited advice. I'm learning I'm really NOT a fan of unsolicitied advice. But, that's another story. It reads....

We cannot help feeling disappointed when a door of opportunity closes. But God will often prevent us from going forward so He can redirect our steps toward another wise pathway. What determines whether we partake of His great blessings is our reaction-will we beat against a barred door or look for a new openning? So that's what i'm doing. I've been working on this goal for several years now and I guess it still isn't time. So....a "new" openning is what I'm going for. Its in these times its hard to "trust in the Lord instead of our own understanding". So...sorry this turned out to be long but this is just where I am right now. Like or not...

GO VOLS!!!!